And people wonder why I’m so darn cranky. Seriously, x-ray technicians asked me to do a back bend to take a pic. Talk about painful. I can be cranky if I want to. Ha!
The thing is, there might be more to come. More “what” you may ask? Pain. Needless to say that my back is FUBAR! It is what it is. Some of my best agile years are behind me but it doesn’t mean that a good agile future is out of the question. In due time I’ll be back to my normal self but with some minor physical limitations but in the meantime I will have to endure pain on my road to recovery.
Currently I am combating a whole slew of mind blowing emotions that more than likely come with back ailments, surgeries and recovery. Unless you have gone through some generally intense back issues like myself, chances are that you don’t quite understand the day-to-day issues and routines that mess with you both mentally and spiritually. It’s not a fun roller coaster for me and for those close to me.
A great big “THANK YOU!” to everyone who has put up with me and who have endured this journey. Most importantly, to those who continue to care for me and continue to provide the best care for me (my beautiful wife and kids), “I love you all!” You’ve made my world an easier one to live in while I’ve probably made yours a difficult one to endure.
Let me just say that the year 2012 was by far one of the worst years I have ever lived through. It could have been worse and it could have been way better but it didn’t turn out that way.
Among the many things that kept me down were my ongoing health issues. I had a series of lower back procedures and surgeries with the last surgery being performed during the first part of December. Merry Christmas, right?
I can’t complain because I feel that each surgery I have gets me just a few more steps to getting better, walking better, sleeping better and overall living better.
The ongoing pain
are is somewhat held at bay by the long list of meds that I take from opiates to nerve meds to anti-inflammatory to sleep aids to “you name it.”
With all of the above said, 2012 has been a failure for me to
continue grow and develop my writing. I was doing rather well up until June and that’s when I hit the proverbial wall. So many projects “works in progress” are in my hopper that either need to be finished, edited, refreshed and what not.
I will make 2013 the year I get some of these “works in progress” finished and maybe even published. I’m pretty sure I can get some of my works published this year and even get a script looked at and sold. Man, oh man would that be fantastic.
2012, you are behind me. 2013, you are ahead of me. Self, make it happen. The worst has been left behind. Clear your mind, set your goals and go for it.